I'm 18 now, and I want to explore the world to seek my happiness. I want to try many things to discover my own worth. I just remembered that my mother said that it is nice to live in this world, even though I didn't realized that. My perspective in the world is negative so do I became like that too. I want to live in a positive way and to appreciate God's gifts. I want to change and I want to know my worth. I should never give up. I should pursue my life and I should never let anyone especially those who regret, distrust, rejected and disgrace me to make me doubt and depressed on myself. Maybe there is a reason why God never let me die in this time.